What I felt when Daisy said she loved Tom

       How I felt when Daisy said she loved Tom is a feeling I won’t forget. It was so hot that day and 

all of us were there sitting in that tiny hotel room. The heat was absolutely terrible.  Tom was all 

fired up and asking me questions about Daisy. This was all ridiculous. Daisy never loved Tom. I 

wanted to tell him how his wife has never loved him. I decided to and he got so mad and asked Daisy 

if this was true. Daisy was hysterical. She was bawling her eyes. I knew she would agree and say it’s 

all true, but then she answered. Her answer shocked me. It hurt so badly. It felt like someone just 

stabbed me. She said it was impossible for her to say that she had never loved Tom. She said she 

loved the both of us. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. I felt betrayed and upset. I felt lied to. 

How could she ever love Tom? He was such a horrible person and she was such a lovely person. She 

does not fit to be seen in the presence of such a horrid man like Tom. I wanted to fight him. We were 

about to, but all of the sudden Daisy ran out of the room. I chased after her. I caught up to her and we 

talked. I told her how hurt I felt and how angry I was that I even ever let this happen. After 

everything I did for her and all the love I showed her, she loved Tom. Some man who didn’t deserve 

my love, Daisy. Tom was the problem in all of this. If he wasn’t so involved I knew Daisy and I 

could run away and get out of this town and live a great life together. Now I know that was all a 

dream. I was stupid in spending my years waiting for her. Throwing her these parties and hoping she 

would show up. When I finally found her again those were some of the greatest moments of my life. 

I was so happy when I was with her, but Tom. It will never work with Tom in the picture. I can only 

imagine us living the perfect life I wish to have with her.

What I was thinking after the accident

     I’ll remember the day of the accident for as long as I live. The accident was so terrible and so 
unexpected that Daisy didn’t even have time to think and swerve out of the way. Although who 
knows if she even really wanted to. She was so emotional and so upset from the conversation earlier 
that took place between Tom, her and I. When she hit Myrtle she was a mess. I told her to keep 
driving and we would switch seats. We did switch and I drove back to her house and dropped her 
off. I was so worried about how Tom would react to his mistress just being killed by his wife. I told 
Daisy I was going to wait outside the house until I knew everything would be okay with Tom. I don’t 
trust him one bit. I waited outside and when Nick spotted me I told him everything that happened. I 
knew he wouldn’t say anything. I trust Nick with my life and I knew he would never hurt Daisy. I 
told him how Daisy was driving and how awful it was. It was raining so terribly, but I couldn’t leave 
the yard of that house. I just kept thinking about her and wondering what was going through her 
mind right now. She must be so upset. I wonder what Tom is doing.  I wish I could be by her side, 
holding her and be with me instead of Tom. I would protect her at no cost. It Tom ever laid his filthy 
hands on Daisy I would take care of him right then and there. I saw Daisy approach the window. 
Thank god. She looked safe. She looked sad, but safe. I hope she saw me standing there and realized 
I would always be there. I hope me standing there made her feel more safe. 

Why I changed my name

            Jay Gatsby is the name I am known by for some years now. However I haven’t always gone by Jay Gatsby. The given name from my father was James Gatz. I wanted to re-invent myself. Have a more superficial and successful name for myself and leave the person of James Gatz behind. Throughout my childhood I came from such a low income family and I would just imagine all the things I wanted to and wanted to become, but the name James Gatz left me behind. I wanted to do the things I saw successful men doing. It was what I dreamed of. Reinventing myself is what I always strived for and changing my name was the start of a new man and new life. Jay Gatsby made me seem richer and more official. If I wanted Daisy to love me I had to be the perfect person she envisioned. I had to be rich and powerful. Even though changing my name seems like such a small part, it changed my whole image. I became Jay Gatsby, a top leader in the army. Jay Gatsby, one of the richest men on West Egg. Jay Gatsby, the woman a girl like Daisy could actually fall in love with. Not the poor James Gatz. When I was James I could never be the man I wanted to be when I wrote those things in my journal. I practiced those things so I could be Jay Gatsby. As a bootlegger, I also needed a new identity. People knew the old James Gatz and I needed someone new that no one has ever heard of and Jay Gatsby was the perfect name for that. 

Why I invited Daisy for Tea

I knew once Nick moved in next door and I found out he was related to Daisy now was my chance. I made Nick invite her over because I was so tired of just waiting. I was tired of watching that green light blink and not doing anything about it. I was tired of living my life day to day without her and I didn't care that she was married I needed to see her. I just want her to see how successful I am, and the house that I have just for her. So she could see all the things she missed out on. Once she saw me I hope she would recall all the great memories we made and she would come back to me and we would re fall in love all over again. I didn't want Tom to get in the way of this. I was so nervous when I made Nick invite her. The thought actually occurred to me as why I am doing this at all. Should I even put myself through this or just live my life from a far? Bringing her here could just confuse her and confuse me. I needed to think positively though and just do it or I knew I would regret it. I figured once she came to tea and saw me all her feelings would come back. There would be no complaints or obstacles anymore keeping us apart. I was very wrong. Everything after that day was an obstacle. All I wanted was for Daisy to see how wrong Tom was for her and how right we were together and I could offer her so much more than Tom ever has and given her the happy life she always deserved. 

What was I feeling when I looked at the green light

        When I looked across the water at the blinking green light so many emotions came to mind. I felt happiness from good memories of the past, but most of all I felt desperate. I knew each time I saw that green light blink I was losing more time in trying to contact Daisy or for Daisy to find me. I felt lonely. Daisy was the only thing he brought true happiness in my life. She brought love. I missed her so much it hurt. I wish I could be staring at her beautiful face instead of staring at that blinking light at the end of her dock. She could be staring out across the water right too, but has no idea I’m looking right back at her. I am invisible. I feel angry because Daisy had Tom. He has taken her away from me. When I finally reach Daisy I know I’ll have to fight him to win her back. I knew I could win. I loved her first and she loved me first. Our love was great and I would do anything in the world to have that back again. We shared such good memories together those many years ago and I would do anything to relive them or just make new memories. I knew when the day came when Daisy walked through my door and came to one of my meaningless parties I would finally have her back. I can only imagine of the day when that happens. I pray the day comes one day. Until then I just stare at the light hoping Daisy will one day be in my life again.

What I was thinking while at my parties

     Every time I threw parties I walked around my mansion looking everyone's faces for my love, Daisy. I thought by now she would've heard of my parties and I would've seen her at least one of them. To my sadness, she hasn't. I wish she would so badly. The only reason I throw all these parties is for the hope that one day she’ll show up. Heck, I don’t even like parties. I don’t enjoy drinking and personally when I look around at these people I feel as though they all just look like idiots. I can’t really imagine Daisy at one of these parties anyone. She’s too pure and classy. I just want her to show up so she can see that I throw these spectacular parties just for her and all the work I aimlessly put in just for her to one day walk through the doors of my house that I bought directly across from her house from across the water. I thought about what it would be like if she showed up to one. Would I get nervous? Or would I run up to her and act like it hasn't been years since I've last seen my love. I've had many thoughts and dreams of her showing up and how we would walk around my yard and just talk for hours and hours and catch up on our lives. I wonder if she’s in love or I wonder if she’s happy. I sure hope she is. After looking for her the whole night I give up and just go hide in my room. I think about all the people down there who probably know Daisy, but I really couldn't think of any. So I stay hidden in my room. Someone has to come through these doors one day who might know of my love Daisy.